I need a break from this, I won’t delete right away but I won’t be posting either. This fandom is currently so full of hate over meaninless things that makes me sick. Every little things seems to be a big deal and I’m tired of drama queens in my life. The world out there is already a horrible place so I believe we should be able to at least have a good time in piece here. But it’s not what’s happening, and it’s making me sad, and sadness is the last thing I need in my life right now. 

If you want to keep in touch you are welcome to talk to me anytime in my personal blog.

Thanks to everyone who was nice to me, really, there are still some awesome people spreading love and not hate (big ♥♥♥ for you).
Goodbye. 


Anonymous asked:
That's why I left the fandom and it's really sad. This fandom can be good, but it's always ruined by the hate that surrounds it. If you make a comment on anything you receive hate like there's no tomorrow. I couldn't handle with it, I said good bye :(

Exactly. That’s exactly how I feel and that’s exactly what I will do. I can’t even say or post anything that there’s always someone ready to point the gun. It’s ridiculous, what happened to tumblr? :(


benbarned asked:
don't you ever think on doing that! don't you ever delete this flawless blog, okay? ugh you know what pisses me off the most? is that they spread all this hate anonymously, they don't even have the guts to do it without hiding behind a grey anon face!! we love you nikki! <3

Omg thank you very much Belu, you are always so adorable I just wanna huuuug you! ♥♥♥

Yah, sometimes they do show their faces, but still, I don’t see the point in spreading hate towards someone you don’t even know. Tumblr was such a good place to be but now it’s just full of hate like everywhere else. It’s a shame, really. What used to be a pleasant way to spend time drooling over Ben became something that makes me sad and I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore, you know? So much hate over meaninless things is unhealthy and I don’t think I need that all that teenager drama anymore. There are bad things enough out there, we should be able to just have a good time in here. :/


deppatronus asked:
If you delete this blog I'll be obliged to stalk you and provide you with a very painful death. Not even mentioning the fact that we'll lose an amazing Ben Barnes blog. I see your point, but please, don't do that =/

KHSLKSAKHDSHKD OMG LORENA PLEASE DON’T KILL ME. :C

Thanks dear. ♥ I don’t want to delete (at least not as an impulse) but still, I’m getting sad with a lot of things here so I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore. Thank god there are still some wonderful people in this fandom like you. Thank you. <3


Anonymous asked:
I just wanted to tell you I don't see a problem at all in this confessions stuff. You weren't copying anybody's idea. Your blog is one of my favorites and it'll always be =D Besides that, I just think people should stop with the hate in the fandom, seriously.

Yeah, I though it wasn’t a big deal either. I mean, it was just a couple posts, not a full blog. Plus, it seems that every little thing is a big deal in this fandom, and it makes me sick, for real. Just too much hate about meaninless shit. I’m not sure if I can keep up with this much longer. It makes me sad when it was supposed to be fun. :/

And thank you very much for the love. ♥


I’m so tired that everytime I try to post something or do something fun it ends up with a bunch of free hate in my askbox. Seriously, I’m about to delete this blog for good. It’s only making me sad and sick.